Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Uh. Help?

So, because of reasons, I started to write up my views on sexuality, when I developed them, at what age I became aware of what things, how I viewed sex throughout my childhood and teenage years and what I thought about it and about my experience and how it all related to my gender identity, my sexual orientation and my view on gender and sexual orientation.

And while nothing on that list comes even close to being illegal, I kind of feel like a lot of people would think it extremely wrong and offensive and probably question my parents approach to education and internet and everything.

I was, even from my eighteen year old perspective, really fucking young when I started figuring out what sex was and really fucking young when I discovered how it applied to me.

As far as I can tell, nothing that I did or learned caused me any harm, but reading it all, I can’t help but wonder whether I am so damaged that I don’t even notice.

Is this normal, to feel like everything happened too early when at the time it was happening, it felt completely normal and natural? Or did I just grow up to be weird about it?